Depressed and pissed!

GOSH! what happened to my phone?!
the battery-EMPTY! the charger-SPOILT!
how am i supposed to get a new charger?!
the nearest town is like almost one hour's journey from my campus..
and the final exam is just around the corner..
like another week to go from now..
and i guess i won't be going out for the next two weeks till the exam's over..
how am i supposed to live without my mobile for two weeks?!!
damn it..
and what makes my day worse is the stupid flu..
gosh! i'll be sitting for the final examination in no time and yet i fell sick..
really hate myself for being so weak..

Byebye holiday.. hello exam.. ;(

Another 5 hours to go and i'll be boarding the night bus back to pahang..
it's such a sad thing isn't it?
i mean.. the final exam is just around the corner..
like two weeks to go from now..
and yet i was still in the holiday mood..
didn't even feel like touching my books..
why the heck did i bring all my books back that day huh?
i shouldn't have brought all the books back that day!
ishh!! now i havta bring 'em all back again!
and the holiday ended just like that..
haiz.. really wish that the holiday will be extended till like FOREVER!!

戴着面具的人类

今天，他让我上了一堂非常宝贵的一课。
他让我看清了人类的真面目。
那可悲、可恶、且可笑的真实面。
就在紧要关头那一刻，它赤裸裸地浮现在我的眼前...
自私、虚假、善变...
那难道就是人心?
此刻的心，还在隐隐作痛...
或许，它已经在我的躯体里一片片慢慢地碎开来了吧!
但这一切都该怨谁呢?
还是怨自己吧!
怨自己的双眸被看似真实的假象给蒙蔽了，
怨自己太容易相信别人了，
怨自己太天真了...
为什么人类的宽容心总是那么容易被利用呢?
为什么有些人须忍受，有些人却总把它当作是理所当然的呢?
就在他为了生存和利益，头也不回地抛下无助的我时，
我才发现，友谊，它是多么地不堪一击。
那一刻，我认清了他...
他那所谓的朋友、知己。
我也明白人不为己，天诛地灭这道理。
所以我不会怪他。
反之，我还得谢谢他。
谢谢他在我还未正式踏入那五花八门的社会前，
免费帮我上了社会大学的一堂课...

It's singing time again..!

Yup yup..
it's redbox time again..
it's already the third time since i came back to Penang..

let me present to you the four of us..
currently studying in three different states..
Pahang, Perak, and Malacca..

what do we share? the same holiday of course..
two of us, WL and I-campus closed because of H1N1..
both of them, ML and SY-having their mid-sem breaks..

it's such a coincident isn't it??

three of us, ML, WL and I holding mini traffic lights.. isn't it cute?? wakakaka..

OMG.. WL and SY got too "high" d.. can anyone pull them down..??

4, 3, 2, 1.. peculiar pose plus hand-made special effects.. cool huh?

since when the traffic lights transformed into lollipops huh? and look who's the bunny right now..

now that's what we call 38.. :p

Closed?! H1N1?!

Another week of holiday?!
WOOHOO!!
now here's the thing..
i was so bored sitting on the sofa watching movie just now..
then suddenly, a friend of mine sent me a message telling me that our college will be closed for one week due to H1N1..
then i was like.. hey.. don't try to bluff me okay..
i've already finished packing my bags and will be taking the bus back to Pahang tonight..
isn't it weird and unconvincing to tell me this at this moment??
minutes later.. i received another sms telling me the same thing..
then i was like.. okay.. this is creepy..
then i started calling almost everyone i know asking them the same thing..
and guess what?! it's TRUE! our college will be CLOSED for another week..
i've already confirmed it with the college..
wow.. never thought of this before..
i mean why didn't the college authorities publish this message in the newspaper or it's official website??
or was that just rumours? it shouldn't be.. i've ald called the college just now..
hmm.. or are they planning to replace the lessons in our next holiday?
anyway, who cares..? isn't it great to have another week of holiday?
muahahaha..

It's pathetic..

there i stood.. at the counter..
waiting for the people in the queue to vanish one by one until it reaches my turn..
then a customer in front of me caught my attention..
most probably because of her or should i say his appearance..
spiky hair, trendy jacket, branded shoes..
a teenage girl or more like a tomboy waiting for the cashier to pack her stuffs up..
this reminds me of someone else who used to be my housemate but more like a stranger to me now..
oh well.. back to the topic..
there she was.. waiting for the cashier to pack her things up..
i think it'd take hours to pack all her things up because what laid before her were dozens of beers, soft drinks, tidbits, snacks and everything you need for a party..
you name it, she has it..
while waiting for her, i lifted my stuffs up to the "rolling board" or whatever you call it..
when i've finished lifting all the things up, she's gone..
what's left before me was a trolley crammed with all the things that teenager brought to the counter a few moments ago..
then i saw the cashier making a phone call.. in her hands, there was a credit card..
a few minutes later, two security guards arrived..
they asked us to shift our things to the next counter..
i was kindna pissed though..
but we did as we were told..
out of curiosity, i kept myself close to the cashier and the security guards just to find out what was happening..
then i realize that the teenager actually stole the credit card from someone else and exploited it just to satisfy her own desire..
luckily the cashier found out that the owner of the credit card was actually a malay while the one using it was a chinese..
hmm.. isn't the teenager naive to think that she could bluff her way through with that stolen credit card all the time..?
to the cashier.. BRAVO.. you've done a good deed..
and to that teenager.. WAKE UP WILL YOU?!
didn't anyone teach you not to steal things when you were young?!
and please.. don't humiliate yourself and your family doing all those criminal stuffs okay?!
it's such a sad thing isn't it?

The strange lady..

there she was..
wandering aimlessly at the pavement..
staring blankly into the gloomy sky..
suddenly.. our eyes met in the mirror..
then slowly.. she walked towards us..
and she started mumbling..
what was she trying to tell us..?
not even a clue..
then she smiled..
a grin so innocent like that of a little girl..
in fact.. from the wrinkles on her forehead..
we knew that she's already a mid-aged lady..
this continued for the next few seconds..
honestly.. it's kindna irritating as we were having our supper that time..
suddenly, a hawker came by.. as if he sensed our annoyance..
"go away!" he yelled..
"my customers are having their meal.."
so again.. she walked away at a snail's pace..
shifting her target to another diner..
that instant, only did i realize she was mentally-disabled..
where is her family? where are her relatives?
no one seemed to be concerned about her..
or maybe she just ran away from her house perhaps?
it's almost 12 midnight..
and we were on our way back..
i turned my head, looking through the window of the car in search of that lady..
she was still there.. telling her stories again..
i could sense the frustration from the diner's face..
but she moved on with her tales..
with a naive grin etched on her face..
then.. the car started accelerating..
and her figure slowly faded away..
i wonder why my heart suddenly aches..
but what else can i do except praying for her?

Home sweet home..

hey guys..
i'm back..
woohoo~~
nice to be home again..
just finished the mid-sem test..
well, hate to say that it sucks!
did so many careless mistakes..
really hate myself for being so careless..
ishh!!
but nevermind.. what's done is done..
there's no changing the past right..?
what i havta do is to work harder next time..
havta make full use of the two weeks' holiday catching up the studies
and of course, enjoy my stay at home..
and for you guys still staying in penang..
remember to ask me out whenever y'all wanna go out k..
miss you guys and my sweet hometown so much..
though it's really hazy here nowadays.. :p

Penang.. here i come..

Guess what..
I'm back! but only for a few days..
such a sudden huh? well.. it's all because of the stupid measles i had..
have to be "quarantined" at home..
hmm.. should i feel depressed as i would miss one week's lesson??
i think i should more or less feel a lil sad..
but hey!! i'm HOME! i can do whatever i like now..
and i don't havta stare at those lecturers for the entire day!!
WOOHOO..
but what about those assignments??
neh.. let it be! but wait till i go back to the campus..
i'll suffer like hell for sure..
and you know what..
it's the first time for me to take a bus from Pahang to Penang ALONE!
gosh! now only i realize the importance of a company..
'cause wherever i go, i havta keep an eye on my belongings just in case someone would steal it..
hmm.. am i thinking too much?
well.. prevention is better than cure right..
okay.. i havta go right now..
just to get some REST..
hey.. we havta listen to the doctor's advice right?? :p

Hectic..

Gosh! finally i can on9..
it's already my third week in Pahang..
life here is really hectic..
especially during the orientation week..
it was like HELL..
we had to wake up at 4 in the morning..
yet we could only go to sleep at 12 midnight!
waking up as a panda everyday just didn't feel good at all..
after the orientation week, though we can have enough sleep..
our schedule is really packed..
packed with lectures, lessons, tutorials and assignments..
haiz.. how i wish i can have 48 hours per day..
and you know what..
i applied for bio but i got physics instead..!
already tried appealing but it failed..
what the heck?!
hmm.. think positively..
maybe it's not a bad thing after all..
'cause by taking physics, we will have more options after we've graduated right..
okie.. i'll just stop here..
library's gonna close soon..
sayonara~~~

Farewell..

Well.. i guess it'll be my last post..
before i go to Pahang..
kindna sad though..
but we havta appreciate the opportunities given to us right..
gonna start my journey now..
so goodbye guys.. *with tears*
wish everyone luck in their future..
i will surely miss you all..
but i think the thing i miss the most..
will be the air-con in my room..
hey.. there won't be any air-con in the hostel!
okay.. i really havta go right now..
take care everyone~~~
:(

An interesting trip~

Sawadeekap~~
just came back from thailand..
so exhausted and kindna dizzy right now after boarding the plane..
so i'll just let the photos tell the story..


Day 1:


Departed.. such a nice view huh?

arrived at the Bangkok's airport.. the name? Suvarnabhumi airport.. sounds familiar huh?

Day 2:

reached the botanic resort in Chiang Mai early in the morning..

one of the pupae in the small butterfly farm at the botanic resort..

we're now at the Maesa Elephant Camp..

saw a camera crew filming a thai series or perhaps movie in the elephant camp by coincidence.. cool huh?

the "fifth leg" of the elephant.. wakaka..

believe it or not.. elephants playing football.. wow!!

an elephant painting a nice piece of drawing.. genius!

the monkey show.. such a cute monkey huh? his name is lucky..

the shuang long miao (double dragon temple) in Chiang Mai..

feasting our belly with the emperor's meal in Kantoke Palace..

we enjoyed the performance while dining in the Kantoke Palace..

Day 3:















the highest hotspring in thailand..

gosh! it's really hot in there..

the White Temple in Chiang Rai, Thailand.. beautiful..

the performance of the akhas in the village.. in the past, whenever a female akha reached fifteen, they have to "sacrifice" their virginity to the kamnan (ketua kampung)..







the two sculptures are actually made to avoid the evils..

visited the Long Neck Karen Village.. guess what? the kayans have to wear the brass neck coils on their necks whenever they reached five.. and the brass neck coils are really heavy.. the purpose of wearing the neck rings is cultural identity..

the Golden Triangle..

we're now at Laos.. the immigration office there is just like a small hut..

the welcome drink in Laos.. eww, i didn't even dare to touch it..

we're just a stone's throw away to Myanmar.. it's actually just a river away to reach there.. however, due to the time factor, we didn't manage to go there that time.. *sigh*

Day 4:

guess what.. it's actually a toilet.. nice huh?

the performance of the beluga whale in the Marine Park.. cute..

the fake floating market.. haha!

the "tombstone village".. hehe.. it's actually the scene from the cowboy show.. the sound effects are brilliant..

the Safari World in Thailand.. it's HUGE!

Day 5:

the temple of the Emerald Buddha.. it's really eye-catching huh?

the Chatuchak weekend market.. it's damn hot there.. if i'm not mistaken, it's like 40 degree celcius or maybe higher during the afternoon!

Day 6:

watching the traditional performance..

an elephant riding a bicycle.. charming..

it's a tiger.. and it's a REAL one!! Whoa! can't believe i dare to touch it.. its fur just feels like the dog fur..

an OBESSED orang utan.. aww.. how cute! ^^

Day 7:

after we checked out from the hotel, we went back from Thailand..
that's all i wanna write for today..
kopkunkap~

puzzled, perplexed, CONFUSED!

Well.. juz checked through the net a few days ago and found out that i got selected for the matriculation programme..
hmm.. am i lucky to get selected for the programme?
i don't really think so..
'cause.. i was selected to the pahang campus!
yup.. it's PAHANG!!
gosh! it's like 8-9 hours's journey to reach there from where i live..
@#*$&*#@$!!
now i'm confused..
should i forget about the matrik thing and go for form6?
or should i go for it since it's a safer path to further my studies?
and by the way, it only takes a year to complete matriculation..
but hey.. it's in pahang you know! *sigh*
can't really make up my mind right now..
well.. hopefully i can make my decision soon..
but most probably i'll choose matrik lar..
though it's really really far away..
who to blame..? blame my fate then..
sure gonna miss everything and everyone in penang..
sobxx.. ;(


Can you see the distance?!! gosh!!

Disheartened..

What a busy day..
woke up at the crack of dawn and rushed here and there till dusk..
finally everything's done and i'm back now..
or else who'd be writing this blog?? haha..
wonder why i often feel rather depressed and down nowadays..
planned to go for a vacation not long ago..
everything is almost settled..
but who knows there came a chaos at the eleventh hour?!
you should know which country i'm talking about rite?
i wonder whether or not will the tourism company change the trip to other countries??
perhaps european countries? whoa! it would be perfectly fine! haha!
well, just ignore me.. i'm dreaming of something impossible again..
right now, i'll just pray that the situation there will be fine soon..
or else, a few thousand ringgit paid will be burnt just like that..!
okay.. enough of the trip thing now..
i also went to the hospital for the same old stuff today..
consulted the doctor and guess what?
his opinion is totally the opposite of the other doctor's view..
well, which opinion should i consider?? totally confused now..
surgery? medicine? radioiodine?
haiz.. i don't feel like thinking about it right now..
at this moment, i think i'll also just pray hard that everything will be fine..
okay.. it's kindna late now..
gonna let the stars (as if there's any..) embrace me to the land of Nod..
nitez~

Redbox..

Haiz.. I'm so exhausted and sleepy now..
just came back from redbox and finished "ruining" my voice box..
so i think i won't be able to speak tomorrow..??
but nevermind.. at least i really had fun today.
it was in fact a very memorable gathering..
we sang, we chatted and of course, we had a nice meal in secret recipe..
hmm.. i wonder when will we have the chance to gather again..
hopefully it won't be long..
and one more thing..
i'm really sorry to those who didn't get to sing much just now..
cause i was like holding the mic for the entire day (maybe not all the time but for most of the time i guess).. paiseh oo.. haha..
okay.. here's some photos taken today..



















guys, say cheese..!!

Sook Yee, She Yi, Yee Chuen and me~~

Met shirley there.. what a coincident.. and OMG! my face! it looks so fleshy!!

photo of the ladies..

I'm 18 now..

I just turned eighteen today..
do i look more matured??
neh.. it's just the same.. the only difference is..
my hair has grown longer ^^.. that's all..
well, is it a good thing being a mere 18 teenager??
hmm.. wait till i figure it out next time..
right now, i'll just post some of the photos taken today..

THE home-made jelly.. guess what.. the "sifu" who made it was actually ME.. cool huh? haha..

cakes and candles.. what else to expect from a traditional birthday celebration??

my cousin n my sis being silly just at the entrance..

it's me "wearing" the gift from my sis n cousin.. yup.. it's actually the t-shirt i'm wearing.. they bought it just because of the word "fat" printed at the back of it.. (-_-")

A letter to Heaven..

Dear granny,

Time really flies..
remember the last time we chatted, you were still at home, watching your favourite movie..
you were there asking me to massage your aching shoulder..
you were there cooking everyone's favourite dish in the kitchen..
you were even there quarrelling with grandpa over who's gonna be the chef in the kitchen..
those memories are still vivid in my mind..
it was like two years back..
that you left us without saying a word..
we were all grief-stricken but yet, we had to accept the fact that God wanted you back in His arms..
today, we went to your new residence as we would every year..
i'd like to tell you that we are all fine..
so, don't worry too much about us..
i suddenly thought of the phrase "you never got a chance to see how good I've done, and you never got to see me back at number one, I wish that you were here to celebrate together" as in mariah carey's song-bye bye..
but i know that you will always live in my heart, now and forever..

Your beloved grandson

i know you are elsewhere up there.. watching over us..

so sorry that we are only able to come and visit you once in a year..